Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Once again it has been quite some time since i last posted...even though im pretty sure no one reads this, considering how dead it is.....

so....yea...im over that little situation from before...i guess....probably....ok mebbe not completely. Anyways...sch's started...like a couple of weeks ago. My classes are ok, there are some pretty cool people...some quiet ones...no one dicernably annoying yet....ok i guess....
My facis on the other hand.....haizz....
Programming:.....she gives me straight "A"s, but she is 1 lazy mo**** fu****.
Web Design: Fat man expects us to produce professional work....zZz....
System Techs: Faci is ok....module is f-ing annoying thou....
Principles of Digital Media: !@#$%^&*&^%$#....WTF does that stupid bitch want from me?!?!!! sheesh..i do my work,cooperate with the team, speak out when i have the chance and she still gives me a cruddy grade?!!...thank the heavens that she aint my permanent faci.

ok that just about covers it for sch......

time to emo...hahaha.....



no seriously....

well....recently i've been feeling down.....way more than usual...feel like the whole world is f-ed up and that things will never go up. It feels like i was given life just to suffer...zZz....pisses me off....
i have tried to look at this differently and could see that some parts are within my control to change...and yet...i cant....
i've done a lot of self psychological therapy....and found out quite abit as to why i act or don't act the way i do/should......
no...i dont intend to explain it all coz i'd probably end up telling my life story...so i'll just say im very,VERY insecure....
Perhaps i do not have it the worst out there, but my life hasen't been a walk in the park either...so don't judge me for what you don't know.

bah...who am i talking to...no one reads this anyways......no one would give a damn even if thay DID read this...hahaha......

sometimes i really do wonder; who would actually give a damn,should i end my life...regardless of it being on my own or by accidental or natural(illness) means....
posted at 12:38 AM