Thursday, May 8, 2014

A place to rant, a place to speak out, a safe haven from everyone. A place for me to speak my mind without hurting those around me. A place where no eyes but mine will see.

Did I do something wrong in a past life? Do I not deserve love? Do I not deserve happiness?

Every story, every chapter has ended with me in darkness. What am I doing wrong?

Should I lock these emotions away? It seems like each time I fall, I end up with my heart ripped out.

Brutus and Cain.....a wound so big I can't seem to mend.

Why do I keep trying? Isn't it clear that no matter what I do I will fail?

Take this darkness and lock it away. No one wants to see it.

Take this love and lock it away. No one wants to see it.

Take this anger and lock it away. No one wants to see it.

Take this sadness and lock it away. No one wants to see it.

Take these emotions and lock it away. No one wants to see it.

Lock it all away. No one wants to see it.

Keep up the smile. That's all they want to see.

Keep up the happiness. That's all they want to see.

Keep up the walls. That's all they want to see.

Keep up the masks. That's all they want to see.

Keep it all up. That's all they want to see.

In the end, nothing is left.
posted at 3:22 AM